When Did the Pain all Start?

I’m Trying to Remember
What Happened to me?
When Did It Happen to me?
Why Did It Happen to me?

When Did My Life Become less about building my life into Something with Purpose?
And More About the Hurt those things Leave Behind when They’re Gone?

When Did The Storm Roll in Over my Green Meadows and Bright Paths?
Cascading Gray and Gloomy; over my Radiant Vivid Life.

I remember when I was Happy; I Remember you.
You were my Everything; I could never hold you close enough.
The Only Light I’ve Ever Found on this Earth.

I Prayed you’d never leave; I was Forgotten
Now Life seems Shaded and Overcast.
Light less and Grim.

When Will The Color’s Run? When Will the Light Illuminate?
Where Are you?

I’m So Tired.  I’m So Tired of Fighting.
I can’t Change What is My Life.
I…Give up.

Let Her Find me.